Urgh just feel ashamed after last night. It’s the first time I’ve been drunk in a very long time. I’m not really a drinker so I feel like I’ve really let myself down.

I didn’t get into any trouble or anything, in fact I was smart enough to walk away from some guy that ragged on my hair. I just feel stupid. I’d gone so long without drinking and I let myself get into a vulnerable position.

It sounds pathetic but I think the thing that made me want to drink was wanting to forget all my uni problems. Things have been getting much worse. Getting my essay back gave me that extra kick whilst I was already down.